There Is No “Would Have Been”

Prior Husband’s Suicide Anniversary #7

Today is the 7th anniversary of Jesse’s death by suicide. The anniversaries were extremely hard the first few years. The first change was when the number of things on the list of annual commemorations shortened. Specific fights, of specific dates, of specific trips, of relationship milestones fell off the calendar. But the deathiversary remains a big one.

When someone dies for “wrong reasons”, suicide or perhaps things like illness young, part of what’s so painful about the anniversaries is…